This is one of those days when the future just really seems too scary. I mean, yeah, generally, the future IS a scary thing and no one’s really prepared for what the future has in store for us no matter how carefully planned one’s life is but what bothers me the most is the fact that I am in third year of college and everyone’s pretty much dead-set on their career path - or at least some of them are - and I’m not. I still have no idea what I want to do with life and I’d like to think that that’s alright because sometimes that’s just the way things go - some people know what they want and some people just take the time to figure things out for themselves. But no matter how many times I try to just shrug it off and tell my friends that “Eh! we’ll see what happens to me”, I honestly feel scared.
I’m halfway through college and although I do love my major, I still have no idea what I’m going to do with it. I know that at this stage it’s perfectly fine for me to be feeling like this - confused, that is. I think, for the most part, I’m feeling like this because I don’t want to be one of those people who don’t know what they want to do with life. I don’t want my life to be like that of a cliched college student who graduated with a major and decided she wanted to take a completely different path. I don’t know. The uncertainty of it all scares me. It sucks. I’m all for taking risks but the stakes of this one are too high. I’ve disappointed myself way too much back in high school. I don’t think I would want to go through that again.
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So that’s a tumblr.
^ What John said.
(But yeah I’m still following said Tumblr haha)
Actually I suspect you can skip the first 8 if you just do the last one.
Yeah, seriously. I don’t fancy myself a great novelist, but perhaps it is because I don’t have a neglected spouse or a loyal pet.
But just for the record:
Childhood trauma: Limited.
Miserable job: Yes, but who hasn’t had at least one of those?
Moment of Self-Discovery: Not that I recall.
Episode of debauchery: I’m only allowed one?!
Pathologic ambition: Check.
Loyal pet: Nope.
Neglected spouse: I hope not.
Personal demons: Well, sure, but again, who doesn’t?
Years of boring hard work: Yes, although as years of boring hard work go, it beats, like, silver mining. And finance.
Day 1 - Best book you read last year
Murakami’s Norwegian Wood is, no doubt, the best book I’ve read in 2011. I actually got my copy of the book from this book sale outside the Dela Costa Hall in Ateneo for only 250 PHP. If I can remember correctly, at the time the same book costs about 500-600 PHP at Fully Booked so I guess it was a pretty good deal.
This was my first Murakami book and I was actually kind of surprised that this one was easy to read as I have heard a lot of reviews that most of his books are quite eccentric and are kind of hard to understand (this was actually proven when I moved on to my second Murakami novel, Kafka on the Shore). I could say it’s a coming-of-age novel with more explicit scenes than your ordinary coming-of-age (usually YA) novels.
It tells the story of a 30-something Toru Watanabe as he was transported back to his college days upon hearing, yes, The Beatles’ Norwegian Wood on an airplane and to his memories of his first love, Naoko, who happens to be his dead best friend’s (ex) girlfriend.
I wasn’t very fond of the ending (or lack thereof) of this book and I spent quite some time frustrating over this book but I think it’s still one of those books which just sticks out among the rest and I guess the way Murakami writes is part of the charm. He’s really poetic in the way he writes the narrative.
I’m not much of a book review person so I’m just gonna include this link from Goodreads for a better synopsis haha. I would definitely recommend this, though, for a first novel for someone who hasn’t read any of Murakami’s novels yet.
